No Big Calling...

Katie Davis, founder of Amazima International writes:

 "People tell me I am brave. People tell me I am strong. People tell me good job. Well here is the truth of it. I am really not that brave, I am not really that strong, and I am not doing anything spectacular. I am just doing what God called me to do as a follower of Him."

I can so relate to this quote.

Just today, as has been the case quite often since bringing Lucy home to live with us, I was told by someone, "Wow...what a blessing  you are to her."

Sometimes it is that phrase...

other times it is:

"Oh they are so lucky to have you as a family!"

or

"Wow...it must be so difficult to do that."

or

"I could never do what you and Doug are doing."

or

"I just don't feel called to adopt or to bring a child to my home."

or

"Wow...you will have a great reward in heaven."

or

"Weren't you nervous about bringing her home? I don't think I could do that."

You see...tonight, as I sit on the computer at 11:29 p.m. I needed to read that quote by Katie Davis. I needed to know there was someone else who could relate to what I have been feeling.

I am no more brave than anyone else.

I am fearful and afraid.
I wonder what the next year will bring for a 17 year old who came to America hoping to play at the University of Kentucky.

I wonder if our sweet Lucy will ever speak a word other than Mama or Dada.

I wonder how long the hospital will continue her treatments.

I get frustrated and tired and worn out.

I get nervous and anxious and concerned.

As Katie Davis reminds us...I am not really doing anything spectacular.

My days consist of driving to doctor appointments, driving to basketball practice, cleaning up mashed potatoes and macaroni and cheese, squeezing in some internet time, and singing bed time songs.

Nothing extra ordinary...

     just obedience.

I am simply obeying God. 

You see,  it's really just saying YES!

Saying yes to a little nudge in our hearts.

This look of a girl, whom we had never met, that I saw on a computer screen. This simple conversation with a man and his wife who were sold out for Ghana.

No big calling.

No blaring lights saying, "I AM CALLING YOU TO THIS!"

Just a nudge...the Holy Spirit...and I am more and more convinced that we miss the blessings because we keep looking for the BIG CALLING when we should simply be listening for the nudge.

What's the nudge sisters? You all have one...maybe it is the nudge to truly accept Christ as your savior? Maybe it is the nudge that has been lingering for some time. Maybe it is only just hit you as you read this post. STEP UP SISTERS! Say "yes" to the nudge...don't miss the blessings!