Bump in the Road

You know those bumps they put in the parking lots and around schools? The kind that are meant to slow drivers down. They force you to put on the breaks so you don't go over it at a speed that would pop your child right out of their seat in the vehicle. 

Well, I hate those things! 

I am a type-A, jump in, go full steam ahead kind of person! You give me a task, I make a check off list. I tackle items without looking back! I go 100%, 100% of the time. I want to be the first to complete something, the last to say "No way, can't be done."

Well, today...we hit a speed bump.

We were moving full speed ahead, thinking we were going to get a medical visa for Lucy and have her over here by Christmas. My mom even bought her American Girl Bitty Baby...beautiful brown skin, just waiting to be ripped open and played with! 

But today...God said, "Slow down!"

Or maybe He said, "Let's see what you do with this. Will you still praise me?"

Today we found out we are going to have to provide proof of medical care...a treatment plan...and either pro-bono services or a donor to cover the expenses for Lucy. We thought we could become her legal guardians and add her to our insurance. We were advised that plan might just work, but that isn't looking like the case at all.

So...today the speed bump came.

It hit me like the speed bumps in the parking lot do..with full force. I stopped for a bit, wrestled with God, cried a few tears, and then was reminded of two things by my dear friends:

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

Joshua 1:9

and...

"Cry it out girl, but then put on your big girl panties and be ready to fight! And God is on our side!"

Good advice. Just what I needed.

So....the speed bump came and went...it slowed me down for a bit...but I serve a great God. I know He has called us to parent this child. I know He has a plan. I know He will provide the medical plan and He will provide the donor!  I know He is still the God of that city and He is still my good and loving God. And I know if it is HIS will for Lucy to rip open that Bitty Baby doll at Nana's on Christmas, HE HAS THE POWER TO MAKE IT HAPPEN and IF HE DOESN'T I WILL STILL PRAISE HIM.

"My soul clings to you. Your right hand upholds me!"

Psalm 63:8