So our son Luke has this habit that drives his dad crazy. Periodically his nose runs a clear liquid. And because he is Luke...because he is the middle child...the one who has been on the go since the minute he was born...the one who came into the world in an instant and hasn't sat still since...the one who will not dare stop to run to the bathroom, grab a kleenex and wipe his nose...he wipes it on his t-shirt. He just pulls it up from below his chin and wipes his nose when it runs. Gross right? I know...and it drives his dad crazy!
Well, as much as we try to get him to get a kleenex, he just keeps using his t-shirts. And he does it so often that several of his t-shirts have a small hole in them right at the neck line. It is a visible sign that he just can't break the habit.
Today I am teary eyed for some reason. I feel the hole in the t-shirt. the visible sign of the habit.
My heart feels a hole. When I look at pictures of our little girl in Africa, I usually smile and even giggle at the work God has done. But today...I feel the hole of my habit of loving her so deeply I don't understand it.
So today, I could use some prayers of uplifting...some prayers to fill the hole...something to break the visible sign of sadness over the habit of loving her and not being able to touch her...
And today I pray for you...whatever your habit is...good or bad...that you might have peace in seeing the hole...peace in feeling that hole...peace in knowing that you can use the visible to claim the invisible faith in our savior, Jesus!
Drives me CRAZY is an understatement!
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praying for you jen - praying your hole is filled today with the love of your family who is around you.. praying that you will soon be able to visibly and physically love on Lucy!
ReplyDeletei think you need a distraction ;) yep... let's get the room ready! yay! next week? i will be there ... you need to focus on what is to come. you need to focus on what HE is preparing you for ...
ReplyDeleteFUN FUN FUN!!!! it is a date... you and me and faith's mound of stuff ;) get excited... get ready to be micro-managed ;) xo
one more thing ...
ReplyDelete' consider it pure joy... my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish it's work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything.
yes... PURE JOY. because you see you will find Joy in the RESULTS of this trial ... not so much the trial itself. the RESULT is gonna be that little baby girl riding her bike up and down washington street in pella iowa... the RESULT is going to be your heart being more than filled... and well... that little hole you talk about... that will be forgotten i am sure of. Because HE is LORD... HE WILL GIVE YOU ALL THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART.
but inspite of all this ... HIS GRACE IS ENOUGH. YES.. JUST REMEMBER HIS GRACE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH!
Jen- I just posted a blog on my blog about my feelings today and how today was one of those sad crying days for me too. How I longed to just hold Kevin and see his precious face. Then I come over to your blog and read your are too. Girl, I am so glad we are here to share this journey with. Love you guys!!
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